Break(in)

"Why do I keep beating myself with a hammer?

To feel real?

Because it feels so good when I stop. "
(Grey's anatomy)

No

It doesn't.

That's when the soreness really kicks in.
The futility of it all?

Yes

So I just find another hammer.

For variety
For thrills
for chills.

Why?

Because I can.

And you can't.
And you shan't.

Stop.

Is just another word
I haven't heard.

Cry

Is a non option
Rivers run dry.

Try?

Perhaps one day
When I can truly say

I broke the hammer
Just to stay alive.