Waiting

I've been sitting idle for hours. For hours!

Where are you? Downing a few beers with your best mates?
Or chatting up that doe eyed colleague
Whom you wouldn't let anywhere near me,
When she knocked on your door
tentatively the other day?

Here I am- slick new image, fitter, faster,
Brand new colours, every detail as you desired.

You even chose these devastatingly obscure blue shades,
Possessively, so that only you can look deep into my eyes.
So why the hide and seek now?

Last night was terrific. So involved.
Just when I thought you'd stop, you kept going
Till I lost myself in your labyrinthine manoeuvres.
Didn't let you down, now did I ?

To rise with you in the dawn,
Watch you sipping that strong bitter brew
You love so much,
Feel your fingers stroking me to rest.
Stop daydreaming!

Why on earth have you suddenly disappeared
When you've poured your heart out to me,
Told me stories as I curl up on your lap
and gaze straight back.

You wouldn't take your eyes off me for days on end!

Tap my secrets out of me delicately...
Plumb my depths for more surprises;
All the music and movies we shared,
and even those business secrets!

Who knows you better than I do?

Every password, every secret email,
How we laughed over every secret admirer
you got it so wrong with, and
the frenzied date juggling in your diary.

But then again,I was never family,was I?

Although in some way perhaps
I was a home for you.
Your retreat from the rest of the raving world.
And of course I'm still here. And so are you.

Wish I was a real woman. Not just a mute laptop.

And are you coming back for that candlelit dinner?